Dying

I am so poorly! the flu has got me and i have been in bed for three days so far. I have survived on lemsips and lucozade because food has pushed me over the edge (i have had two bowls of cornflakes though!) i have nearly fainted twice on visits to the loo so i have resorted to holding it in for as long as possible ( unnecessary info) i have missed lindsey's gig, hope street christmas do and will also miss Altru xmas party. I am hardly ever ill especially not to the point where i cannot get out of bed and it has made me think a lot about my future. I want to live on my own but what if i get ill, cannot get out of bed, cannot feed myself etc etc. What if i have an accident and am lying naked on the floor for week before anyone finds me ( am guessing that is a falling out of shower scenario) i like being on my own and being independent but that does not mean i want to end up half eaten by a labrador and drowning in my own urine before anyone notices i was ever ill, does all this make any sense? am delirious from medication...